You and I
should have our own words, don’t you think?
Our own
words,
Different words,
To say what
we feel
For those random,
incongruous bursts
Of whatever
it is that makes us hammer into the cracks
Of each
other’s vulnerabilities. . .
I think I will call mine frustigue - this feeling -
The sound
Of pounding rubatosis,
As that little nerve on the corner of my right temple begins to throb,
Of pounding rubatosis,
As that little nerve on the corner of my right temple begins to throb,
As I feel the rush of blood crawl up my cheeks
To mirror the changing colors on your face,
And I can almost hear the clamoring emotions trapped inside of me -
When you
ask
And I
answer,
You ask
And I answer,
You ask
And I answer the same fucking question!
You can’t
change the way I feel, you know,
By changing the words you use to ask.
And then
you say ‘Don’t shout’?
You alone understand my fears
As I know
yours;
It’s
like fighting a battle we both lost. . .
So you just
seal it with your middle finger
And a
loudly mouthed ‘fuck you!’