Counting

I put on my blue dress
And look in the mirror,
I tell myself I like what I see;
And what I can't see doesn't matter,
Does it?
They won't see the sleepless night in my eyes,
Or hear the little sound
Of something breaking inside.
They won't see my thoughts,
They won't know how I feel.

I slip my feet into my shoes;
They won't know how they hurt,
They won't know 
That I'd rather stay home.
It's time to go,
So I put on my best smile;
I know I'm going to laugh later,
Maybe even say something funny...
And I know they won't see,
Beyond my armour.

You ask me how many times 
A heart can break?
I don't know yet,
But I'm still counting.

Fireflies in Summer

When the night is at its darkest 
When the moon becomes a stranger
When you don't have to close your eyes
To count the scars on your soul
Just smile,
Stay strong,
And hold on...
There'll be fireflies in Summer.

One More Time...

Why does it have to be so hard?
This living? 
One moment you’re content feeling nothing 
And in the next, there is too much... 
It's like someone’s watching; 
Making sure you crumble again 
Just to see if you can get up 
One more time...

Solace

I’d like to be wooed today

With words that meaning everything

And nothing

Are you at a loss?

Borrow some then

From the legacy of those

Who did say all that is right

I don’t care

Just give me something

To salvage

It’s been a long, long day

I’ve forgotten the sound of my laughter

So come home

Let me see you smile.

Comfort

Another new day,
Another new year,
It's once more time
To make promises anew...
We used to send cards, remember?
I'd send you one today,
But I stopped buying them
All those years ago,
When life took over,
And 'busy' became our only excuse.


Another new day,
Another new year,
Times have changed so
It is strange
That I don't quite know
When I stopped looking like me
But the face in my mirror
Isn't the one that I remember
It's like I lost myself
Somewhere in the routine.


Another new day,
Another new year,
Do you feel like I do sometimes?
Do you look back on old times
And wish we had done
Just a little more living?
It's not like you don't look happy
In the pictures of you on 'Facebook'
But then again
My pictures lie too.


Another new day,
Another new year;
Yet the seasons still feel the same:
The smell of Spring,
The warmth of Summer,
The rustle of leaves in Fall,
The tingle of the Winter cold.
And I'm glad some things still feel the same
No matter what time makes us,
No matter where time takes us.

Winter Soliloquy

It’s Winter still
The trees are frozen –
Their branches barren – 

The wind is cold,

And the land is still covered in snow...

But there’s hope yet:

In the warmth of wool,

In a cup of hot coffee,

In the smile of a friend

I haven’t talked to in years.

There’s hope yet;

In the comfort of hugs,

In the endless love of a child,

In the selfless love of a parent.

I still wait for Spring,

But there is hope yet;

For Winter isn’t so cold,

Not while the embers stay warm.

Words

Where have all the words gone?
Did I lose them
The way I lost my mind
One thought at a time,
One word at a time;
Or are they scattered,
Are they buried,
Somewhere in the dark recesses
Of my mind,
Refusing to surface,
For fear
Of being left unheard?